Chapter Twenty-Eight



CHAPTER TWENTY EIGHT


Parnika stretches her arms getting up from the bed. Looking outside the window makes her realise that she’d been sleeping the whole day. The sunset had the sky turned golden hue and she was yet on her bed snuggling inside the blanket. She opens her laptop and logs into her email account looking for a email but to her disappointment there wasn’t any.

A few months back when she read from Khushi that Jay is going to propose Anjani, her heart was almost shattered into pieces. She wanted to cry her heart out and had locked herself into the room. It was already late when she had read Khushi’s email. Just a few days back she thought everything was fine. While working she stumbled upon her old email account that she wasn’t using recently, it wasn’t a professional id hence she avoided using it. She used to have that account when she was a student. She only used it to keep in touch with Jay when she was in college.

But her eyes went wide open when she had a look at the inbox. She remembered khushi mentioning Jay sending her emails daily. She never had realised Jay would be using this age old address for it. Although it was special as Jay had created this id for her to stay in touch. Thinking about it was bringing back a ton of memories back. She scrolls down the huge pile of emails. She scrolls down to the very first email and opens it.

Jay had opened his heart out to her with each letter he had sent her. Tears rolled down her cheeks as soon her dream to marry her love would crash as he’d be asking someone out today. She clicked the compose button and started writing her heart out. She confessed her love for him and hit the send button without thinking twice.

For a moment she was happy that she finally did it but as a few minutes passed she panicked. She realised what if she had just been interfering between a happy couple? Jay would never go to the point of proposing marriage if he wasn’t serious. She desperately wanted to undo the sent email but it was late. The damage had been done and all she could do was vail.

Her conscious was killing her for interfering between them. But at the same time there was a part of her still hoping that all of this is a dream. He really loves her and this was just in the heat of the moment. She logs out of the email account and decides to stop reading the emails further. She wanted to get Jay out of her thoughts for once. He’ll soon be married with someone else and she can’t let her feelings about him rule her life.

That was the day she decided to give Jake a fair chance. She knew he had been having feelings for her all this while. It was so obvious that most of their friends had been teasing them to get together. But all that time she had just had him as a friend. For once she wanted to give someone else a chance, the only way of getting Jay out of her mind. After that she started interacting more with him. Responding to his flirts and hanging out more.

But even a million attempts for getting Jay out of her mind were a huge failure. Every moment with Jake made her remind of the moments she had spent with Jay. It was more traumatic for her to think of someone else if she really wanted to give Jake a chance.

Today, was the last day. She had spent most of her day sleeping. What went across her mind was unknown but suddenly she opened her laptop and logged into the old email account. It was a surprise as there weren’t any new emails from Jay. She decided to be strong and scrolled down through all the emails she had decided not to read after reading a first few from Jay on valentines day.

She opened one email after another, reading all the mails he had sent her. Tears flowed down her eyes as he had described each day of his with details. It felt as if he wanted to be with her all this time even when she wasn’t there physically. It reminded her of the olden times when Jay used to send her detailed mails about what was happening there. In the last email Jay wrote about how much he found Anjani similar to her. It felt as if he was trying to find Parnika inside Anjani. It was the last email that he had sent her and it was on 14th feb, the day khushi said he had planned to propose Anjani.

She was about to logout from the inbox thinking everything was over and it was a huge mistake from her side to read the mails. It made much harder for her to move on from Jay and give someone else a chance in her life. But one email caught her eye. It was a mail from Anjani 2 days later .i.e. On 16th feb.

Dear Pari

I know I have no right to call you by that name but its the name which Jay adores the most. I spend so much time with him but it took me so long to realise one single thing. All the months I spent with him made me just fall in love with his heart. The way he cared made me weak in knees and I just wanted to be with him forever.

But the day I realised he was just trying to find you in me broke my heart. I realised how huge is your part in his life. I’d never be able to replace that. The way he writes to you about every single day. Even when he mentions it feels as if he knows you more than yourself.

I was close to him physically but no matter what I did, I was never able to replace you in his thoughts. At times while sleeping he used to murmur your name.

Yesterday, when he asked me out, I so wanted to say yes. I wanted to make him mine and get you out of his life but when I read your email, my inner self didn’t allow me to do that. Although I selfishly had deleted those emails you had sent in the heat of the moment. But later when I realised how deep your bonds are with each other, I decided to move out of your lives and never come back again because if I do, I won’t be able to help myself to keep me away from him.

Tell him Pari, tell him how much you two are meant to be. I promise no one would come in between this time. Also, Jay is quite a chick magnet so keeping him single isn’t a wise choice if you love him. He’s  loyal one, don’t ever break his heart else I’ll kill you.

Anjani

This email had turned her world upside down. She cursed herself for not reading these mails at that time. But again she was on the same point, totally unaware about what was happening in his life. She write all her feelings for Jay in a letter and just hit that send button but this time she decided not to do the same mistake again. She’ll this time tell him in person. She won’t hide behind anything this time. No one would come between them.

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I took a big leap - Why I left Wattpad

Yesterday was the day when I took a huge leap. Surely for some of you it might not look like one but for me it is. It took me a long time to finally take this decision and let me tell you why as most of you are asking me about it.

Yesterday I deleted my Wattpad account and decided to start posting here on my personal website/blog. Many of you were shocked by the decision because of me being an Ex-Wattpad ambassador and it being a huge part of my life. Well the full story behind it is that, I might have began to start my journey as an author on Wattpad but now it was feeling stagnant.

I have invested quite a lot over my blog and it was conflicting to come up with content at the same time to keep two things alive. Writing is a hobby and a passion that helps me earn a bit of pocket money for now. Publishing on Amazon is a complete different story which I'll share someday in future but for now let's focus on this topic.

After I finished my first book, I had been writing a second Science Fiction in the same time. But again as the time passed it was growing difficult for me to generate content for both my blog and Wattpad account. It was weird to divert same set of readers on two different places to read the same content by the very same writer. It was weird for me as well as the people who used to love read my stuff. I had started to see decline because of this hustle between two platforms.

Since my academics were also a huge factor in the real life which are actually going to define my career and future and they had been taking a huge toll because of my online life. I decided to merge everything into one and minimize the clutter that I've spread around. Surely the progress will be slow and not as expected but it'd be better than me dancing between apps and platforms to address the very same set of crowd.

Another reason to ditch Wattpad instead of Blog was Wattpad wasn't honestly giving a good response on originally created stories. Cliche was getting more views than everything else and whole thing seemed like a pain because blog here was giving much better response than Wattpad. Another factor being Blog is my own entity and creation while Wattpad is a totally different set of platform. Here on the blog I can do as I feel like but on Wattpad I am bound to the things that they offer me.

Another factor being the question of keeping books on the platform once I finish and publish them. Overall the whole thing of keeping it was weird for me as it had no significant use for me. All I used to do was interact with a few people here and there for a few days until they went missing and that's all. For reading, I have my Kindle and I feel there's plenty of content still left for me to consume on it. I know many of my Wattpad friends would be thinking of me as a 'stupid' but well you understand  me why I did that, Also I am not dead so stop acting like that. I am here and you can contact me via any of the sources I am linking here.

So just as I decided to ditch a few socials, deleted a few other apps and sorted all the clutter it was on step in that direction. I hope you enjoy reading here and would support me the same way you did there. Do share the content if you love and I hope it lives upto your expectations.

So in future you'd find this place on the internet holding all my work in progress books which you can read and comment on as a beta readers before they head off for publishing. Also, I'd be solely focusing on this platform and might bring out a few updates soon if everything goes well. I'd totally love if you'd share it and spread it across helping me to reach new readers.
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Chapter Twenty-Seven



CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN

Parnika walks into her room shutting the door behind her. She jumps on the bed. She pulls a pillow close and embraces it tightly resting her head on the wall and looking outside the window thinking about her life. It was their last week and soon they’d be off back to their own places. They’ll be off again on a journey, back to their own nests. As a way to thank the team for being so supportive and give them some time to relax after all the work that they had done, the administration decided to gift them a relaxing opportunity in a resort.

Being the last week of the program the team was so exhausted that they desired nothing more than rest at the moment. Most of them were already deep asleep in the bus having no clue of where they are at the moment. Suddenly, the bus comes to a halt and there’s an announcement. An old man dressed in shorts and a hat comes up, “There’s one last task before we all bid ade`iu to each other.” Most faces droop listening to it. “Since you have touched so many lives during this year, we in the administration wanted to give you a returning or thanking gift to all of you. So, your task is to relax yourself and enjoy the week here at the blue palm resort”.

Whoots and claps fill the bus waking up their friends who had been napping all the way along. The bus starts moving towards a huge gate which felt like they were entering some nature reserve. A little ride for a while and the bus halts at the gate of a huge resort. The view leaves most of them in awe by its beauty. It was a surprise from the council and a way to thank the team for their hard work and determination. They had been working in these difficult conditions for a long time now. It was a nice way to let them relax and enjoy a bit before they head back home taking all the memories from the trip.

“Wow! I am just going to sleep for rest of the week and if I am not sleepy, you’d find me in this pool.” Gemma raises her hand stretching herself after a long bus ride pointing at the large pool nearby as they walked by the gates. “I am thinking the same gemmy.” Parnika high fives her as they carry their bags to their respective rooms. Clara walks close to Jake and tries to hold his hand as Jake smiles at her and extends his hand to pick her bag thinking she wanted his help with luggage.

A lot had changed during this one year and everyone was could see there were a lot of bondings brewing between this whole group. There were deep bonds of friendship, rivalry and sweet romance brewing between a few
chosen ones.

It took a few hours of settling down in their rooms to get surroundings calm and silent again. It was february and the month of romance had affected most including Jake who walks towards Parnika’s room. He knocks on the door as there’s a voice from inside, “It’s open, come in!” Jake opens the door and walks to find Parnika on her bed with laptop on her lap. It felt as if she had been crying but there was weirdly a smile on her face. He sits beside on the bed and places his hand over hers. “Is everything okay? You seem a bit off.” He was worried about her as he could clearly see the dried tears on her cheeks and eyes puffed up. “Yeah, its okay. Just was going through old pictures thinking, how I am going to miss all of you.” She tries to wipe off tears with her arm. She closes the laptop and places it back on charging. “Really? You can share anything with me.” Jake assures her as she shrugs and gets off the bed. “I’m fine Jake. It’s just that you all are now close like a family to me now. Once I am back to India, who knows when we will see each other again?” She picks up a red and yellow sundress that Jake had gifted her for the birthday. “Wanna hangout tonight? I am bored sitting alone in the room. Gemmy is busy video calling her fiance and Clara wants to sleep as she’s tired from the trip.” She walks towards the bathroom. “Yep sure, you get changed, I’ll wait for you down in lobby.” Jake gets up and walks out.

She wants to hangout? With me? That’s something new! Wish I could know what’s in her mind. Usually she wants me to let her be alone in the room. It’s always been a tough task just to get out of the room. Maybe relaxing climate of resort changed her mind? Or is it something else? Well I am better don’t get raising my hopes. It’s just a week and after this I don’t know if i’d be able to see her again. Ah man this sucks! He moves hands through his hand and lets out a sigh.

“How do I look?” Parnika walks towards Jake who was waiting for her in the Hotel lobby. Jake’s eyes rolled checking her out from head to toe. A huge smile over this face and a sparkle in his eye. “You look amazing!” He gets up from the couch. “Thanks!” Parnika smiles at him with flushed cheeks. “Let’s go then, shall we?” Jake extends hand towards her. She thinks for a while as memories of Jay holding her hand taking her out flashes against her eyes. She shakes her head and grabs Jake’s hand as they walk out.

It was the last day of their stay in the hotel. Parnika is already up in her bed sipping her morning coffee while reading a book.The beaming rays of sun shine over her eye as the golden red hue fills the sky. She had been up all night reading the book that Jake had gifted her last night while they had been hanging out together. Everyone had been gifting each other something as it’ll be their last day after being toiling together for a whole year.

Parnika had decided to gift Gemma a nice dress as her wedding was coming up soon a few months later. For Clara she had decided to gift her the latest model of her favourite smart watch that she’d been saving up for all this time. It was quite expensive but worth the memories that they had lived together. But she hadn’t got anything for Jake yet. She had been noticing Jake behaving quite different around her. Is it what Gemma thinks? Oh no, no, no… I like him but it’s just friendship. I don’t wanna break his heart. She opens up the laptop and starts searching for some gifts that she could give him.

She gets a list of the bookstores nearby and calls them to see if they have a copy of the book. There was one store which was inside the resort premises. She decided to gift Jake a book which was a sequel to his favourite book that he had given her to read last night. She had finished the book overnight and had loved it. I am sure he’ll love this. She looks at the book cover on her laptop screen as she dials up the number. Luckily the store was open right now due to some repairing work and the owner was ready to deliver it to her room. It was a lucky day indeed.

Jake had been just out from shower when he hears a knock on the door. “Who’s it?” He shouts quickly putting on his pants throwing the wet towel on the bed. “It’s me, Parnika.” Listening to the voice he calms down and heads to open the door. “Oh come on in.” He opens the door as Parnika obstructs her vision by bringing the book in front of her eyes. “Get dressed first buddy”. Jake sheepishly smiles as quickly slides a tee over his bare torso. “Sorry! I was just out of shower.” Jake rubs back of his head as Parnika brings down the gift looking at him. “What brings you her early in the morning?” He picks the wet towel from the bed. “Oh, I just wanted to return the book you lended me yesterday.” She hands him the book. “Seems you spent the whole night reading this eh?” Jake gestures at her eyes which had now dark circles and were drowsy.

“Yes! Anyway, do you wanna hangout somewhere? It’s the last day of us together. I want to spend it with my team.” She smiles at him as he shakes his head. “Yes, we will be I think you should sleep first. We will get you at noon. I don’t want anyone to say I sent the angel from my team back like a zombie.” Parnika playfully hits Jake as he makes a fake hurt expression. “See ya later…” She smiles walking out. “See ya later too…” Jake closes the door thinking about life without her.

Jake and Parnika had grown really close during last few months. He was the best friend she had after Jay. But fate had something else in the mind for them. Jake had developed feelings for her. Jake was well aware of Parnika’s thoughts about Jay. He had controlled his feelings all this time but a few days back something had changed. Jake was waiting for Parnika in the hotel lobby but she didn’t show up for an hour. Jake, who was now worried, headed towards her room to find her door open. She was on her bed with her face dug in pillow crying. Khushi had informed her Jay’s plan about proposing Anjani on the valentine’s day.

She had cried whole night that day. He had never seen her so depressed and hopeless until that day. He cheered her up somehow and next day it was weird. It felt as if nothing had happened just a few hours back. He thought she had finally decided to move on from her crush. He wanted to ask her about it but he decided not to pull the cat out of the bag. He didn’t want to hurt her and remind her of the incident again. Since then, Parnika had been more friendly towards Jake. She at times even flirted back with Jake. Everything was going really good so far.

Jake picks the phone and dials for Gemma’s room. “Hey gem, I need your help” Jake blurts as Gemma picks up quickly. “What’s up? Is everything okay?” She was the only one who could help Jake at this moment. Gemma was the closest one to Parnika from the team. “It’s the last day today. I was thinking if I could….”

“You want to ask Parnika out on a date?”

“How did you know that?”

“It’s quite evident Jakey, your cheeks are always red when we are talking about her. Anyway, so what’s your plan?”

“Uhm, nothing as of now. That’s why I need your help. I want to make this night super special for her.”

“Calm down boy! Well let me think what can we do…. Uhm, you can take her to the cruise dinner tonight?”

“But I want to keep it a surprise. Won’t that be quite an obvious guess?”

“Oh no, trust me. I have a plan in mind. You book a table for two and it’s my job to get her on the cruze. Also, be there on time.”

“You are angel gem! Thanks a lot! “

“Haha save the thanks for later boy!”


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Review: NEVERFOUND LAND



NEVERFOUND LAND by Durriya Kapasi
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Blurb From Goodreads:
Solomon, who is a genie and human hybrid, discovers his supernatural powers and a truth hidden from him for twenty years. His ordinary life turns into an adventure, full of never-ending challenges and responsibilities, when his foster father is kidnapped and his biological father’s kingdom and legacy is threatened. Will Solomon step into the land of the genies to save his loved ones? Will he accept his fate as the heir of Neverfound Land? Neverfound Land is a heartwarming tale of a young man taking control of his destiny.

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I had read the prequel (click here to read about it. ) and I can certainly say that sequel is worth the wait. There were a lot of uncleared things in the previous book which I feel are now explained very well. I wish there was more content to read although as the whole ideas of Genies and magic is exciting to read. Most of us have read about Aladin and his magic lamp but this story takes us on some new unseen world of genies. It is a totally and unique plot. The writing and narration was really good and the plot was really well worked upon. Totally enjoyed reading it as I finished it within a day.

I loved the cover design and the printing quality. It's weird to mention because I've never added this to any of my reviews but I really liked the printing style. Only regret being wish there were more chapters to read. I felt this could've another book in the series like a triology instead of duology. The plot had so much depth into it that I felt there could've been possibly more stuff to write and create the genie world. But in a gist if you are a fantasy lover and wanna grab a unique plot, this book is totally worth going for it.

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Chapter Twenty-Six


CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX

Next morning Anjani wakes up and finds herself in Jay’s room. She looks at the time in the wall clock. It was 12 noon. How did I come here? Oh god! How can I sleep for so long? Jay must have already left for work. She gets off the bed and heads for a bath. Coming downstairs she finds a box of pizza and a note beneath it.

Hey Anu!

I so wanted to kiss you and wake you up like sleeping beauty today. But I felt it’d be bad to wake someone up from the deep sleep when they look so beautiful while sleeping in peace. I wished I could’ve let you sleep up, but I wasn’t sure how long you’re going to sleep. I didn’t want you to get picked upon by birds and get fried in sun so I carefully carried you down in my bedroom. I too was up late this morning hence had ordered two pizzas. I hope it’s still warm when you get up. Do give me a call when you’re up.

Yours,
Jay

She puts the note down on table and opens the box lid. Jay had ordered her favourite double cheese crust pizza. She stares at the pizza thinking about the email. Playing with the topping for a while. She suddenly gets up and heads to her room. She turns on the laptop and searches for the earliest flights available to Darjeeling. Luckily there's one available which she books instantly. She pulls out her suitcase and starts packing her bag. The flight was at 3:30 pm. It was 1pm now, she had to leave quickly for the airport

She books in a cab using her phone and finishes packing her bags. She waits for the cab on the dining table and writes a letter for Jay. Tears drop down her cheek as she begins to write the letter.

Dear Jay

I know it's not the way to let you know about this but I think we can't be together anymore. I thought about your proposal the whole night. I think we aren't meant to be at all. I didn't have courage to tell you this in person hence I am writing it down for you. I know you'll be mad at me but this is for our own good.

I know you'd be thinking why am I writing you this letter. I had realised it long ago you aren’t in love with me. You felt the similarities and hence the illusion of love. You have feelings for someone else dear. The only reason we were so good together because you felt I am just like her. I tried my best to replace her in your life but my bad, I couldn't. Sooner or later she'd be back in your life and this will be happening sooner or later. It'll be better for me if I do this right now, else I won't be able to survive it later. My love for you is true but I don’t want to be loved in a shadow of someone else.

For once I wanted to be selfish and hide this truth. I wanted to replace her in your life but my conscience didn’t allow me. I was happy being with you and wanted you to just be mine forever. But I think we aren’t destined to be. Remember that day you told me that you felt something quite familiar about me? As if we have met before? I thought it was a pickup line, but later I realised it was not. I am not the one who deserves your selfless love.

You need not worry about me. Also, don't forget to invite me to your dual wedding plan. I'll surely help you out with planning. I'm pretty sure you'll realise your feelings about her soon. I wish you both a really happy life ahead.

Love you,
Your Anu.

She keeps the letter beneath the pizza box and rubs tears off her cheeks. It was a big decision for her. She might not have done this if Jay had been here. While thinking last night, she decide she couldn't be that selfish. She can't hurt anyone's feelings just to save hers. She bites her cheeks and grabs her bag. The cab was waiting outside for her. The driver helps her to get the baggage into trunk as she starts having double thoughts about her decision.

At once she she wanted to move back and fight for her love but then guilt of spoiling someone's life isn't going to get her moving back. She closes the cab door as she sits on the hindseat.


Jay was excited about the day as he had planned a surprise dinner for Anjani. He wanted to make up for the failed surprise, hence he decided that he’d leave a few hours early and surprise her. It was weekend hence he had planned for a stay in resort for 2 days. He had no idea that they’d be able to go on a dinner on the next day as his surprise had failed. Hence when Anjani was working according to Jay, he was looking into some nice places nearby to spend time at. He stumbled upon a resort’s website which was not too far away from the city. Just 3 hour drive from the city, the resort was on the river bank. He clicked into the brochures and looked at the things they could enjoy for a weekend. It seemed like a fun plan. I can’t wait to see the reaction on her face! He unlocks the car and gets into the driving seat.

I am pretty sure, she won’t believe I did it. Well second surprise in a week probably won’t be too much. Not my fault, I had planned it long back. Excited Jay rings the bell. He waits for a while but there’s no sign of Anjani. He looks at her car in the garage which was standing there collecting dust over it. He pulls out his phone and dials Anjani’s number. He holds the phone by the ear as he listens to the same automated voice saying the phone is switched off, please try again later. He quickly pulls out the keys from his pocket and opens the door. There was no one inside. Where did she go? He walks by the dining table and sits on the chair. His eyes land upon the pizza box. Ah, let me throw this empty box in bin. The foul smell from the box was tickling his nasal passages as he lets out a sneeze. He picks up the box to find the pizza whole inside. A letter falls at his shoe as he puts the pizza box back on the table.

He opens the letter and falls back on chair on reading the first paragraph. He closes his eyes and starts deep breathing. He continues reading the letter as a tear slides down his cheek. His eyes were red and fuming with anger. He crushes the letter and throws it into the bin. Why did she do this? Who is she talking about? I don’t love anyone else. What if she was mentioning about Shriya? I should’ve never told her about my past. Why does she think I still love her when I don’t? Is this an excuse to get away from me? But she really loved me, didn’t she? Why would she jeopardise her own relationship? Urghh…! He moves hands through his hair furiously and sits on the couch holding his head in hands.

His eyes land on the phone as the notification sound chimes in. Khushi had sent him the pictures of Parnika with her team. Parnika had sent khushi the same pictures she had sent Jay and others. But these pictures missed the ones she had sent to Jay via email. The email was still lingering there in the deleted folder very much unnoticed to Jay’s eyes. He scrolls upon a picture where some white guy was embracing Parnika. Even she has someone in her life now. Why it always happens to me? Why me? Why every girl I give my heart to has to play with it? He gets up from the couch. Enough is enough, now I’ll do as I like. No more sweet and caring Jay. They like guys who are jerks right? I’ll be the one they wish for. In movies and every other story, nice guys like him get played along all the time. For once he just wanted to stop being himself and be a jerk that these movies used to promote.

He knew it wasn’t right but it was the only way from his feelings to get hurt anymore. He won’t let anyone play with his feelings anymore. He doesn’t need anyone’s help in his life. He clears the chat with khushi and turns the phone off.


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Chapter Twenty-Five


CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE

Anjani and Jay have rest of their dinner in silence thinking about each other. Both had the same question in their mind. Both wanted to know what would be outcome of their relationship. She asked for some time, does that mean she is not interested in me? I know girls at times can be insecure like khushi had advised. But I can’t really wait to know her answer. If this turns out bad I am not going to forgive khushi. I just wanted to gift something nice, but this idea of hers better not backfire. But if it does, it means there was something wrong between us already? If it is the case it was meant to come out sooner or later. Why am I being so pessimistic? I know I had a bad experience in past but that doesn’t mean all girls are the same.

She likes me and I know it. Maybe it was just too soon for her? Khushi you better be not wrong at this please. I don’t know why this is getting me so nervous. While Jay is busy in his mental debate Anjani excuses herself and heads to washroom. She opens the email app. There was a new email. She opens it with a gulp. It was from Parnika. She couldn’t believe her eyes. This morning she was wondering if she’s ever going to reply Jay or not and now she actually did. She was trying to get back into his life. She hadn’t imagined that happening this soon. She begins to read.

Dear Jay

I am so sorry that I didn’t reply you until yet. I was mad at you. I was mad at you because you left the house without even telling me what happened? What had got you so angry. I had been told something else but I am happy to know the truth from your side. As you know I can’t stay mad at you for long. There were some technical issues hence I couldn’t respond earlier. It’s been great here so far all these months. You know I made a ton of new friends. Here, people are from all over the world. I made a few close friends too. Their names are Jake, Gemma and Clara. You know Jake is really sweet and often reminds me of you. We were in medical camps in areas where there’s not even electricity. Our work at this site is now over. 

We vaccinated over a lakh people during this period from the deadly flu virus. I just can’t believe how many lives we just saved all this while. We just arrived to hotel for a week a few days back. Also, We will be moving on to our next site which is in democratic republic of Congo. You know we both wanted to go on a safari in africa once? I did that! It was so much fun! Tons of animals here and there in grasslands. Lions, cheetahs, wild elephants, hippos, you name it and they’re here. I am attaching my trip pics below do check them out and lemme know how they are.

I have read most of your emails and am still reading them. There are many more to be read. I am really happy for you. I wanted to write back to you before I read them ahead because I know how much you’d be missing me. You know I want to tell you that this site we are going on is quite a tribal war zone of sorts. I am not sure how that experience would turn out to be. But I am sure this will be over soon. I can’t wait to see you in person again. I don’t know when again I’d be getting an internet connection again as I am writing this now. I can’t wait Ma and Pa to tell about this. Don’t miss me much, I’ll be there soon.

Love you loads,
Your Pari.

Anjani is shellstrucked for a while. What should I do? Should I tell him? But what should I tell him? He’ll be mad at me if he knows that I’m reading this without his knowledge. Should I let it be and react as if nothing’s happened? But what if he reads this tomorrow? Should I risk him letting know that he’s been forgiven? What if he realises his true feelings about Pari? Would he just leave me? What do I do? Tears started flowing down her cheeks. It wasn’t easy for her to let go Jay. Now, she had no one in this world apart from him. He was the one whom she could trust apart from baba. He was the best she could get. Can I be so selfish? I can’t play with someone else’s feelings. I am not manipulative jerk.

In the heat of the moment, she deletes the email and washes her face. I can do this, I’ll fight for my love. Anjani knew that this was Jay’s spare email that he hadn’t synced with his phone. It was his childhood email account that he used to mail Parnika when she had been studying in Aurangabad. She lets out a sigh and walks back. Jay looks at her with worried eyes.

“Were you crying? Did I do something wrong? I knew it, It was khushi’s idea. I just wanted to gift you something really nice for the valentine’s day but she proposed me this whole idea of having dual destination weddings in Canada. I felt it would be too soon.” Jay looks at her as her eyes were red and puffy from crying earlier. “It’s nothing like that Jay. It’s just that, got emotional. Baba had this dream of getting me married and watching me go on honeymoon with my partner before he died. When you pulled out a ring, it just brought back memories of him and his wish.” Anjani was never a good liar but this time it turned out really good. It felt like Jay was convinced and had calmed down.

Rest of the dinner both ate in silence and smiled at each other. Jay wanted to cancel the long drive plan as he thought the mood wasn’t appropriate at the moment. But Anjani insisted that it’d just let the thoughts out of their mind. So music was turned on and they went on a long drive returning late at night. Both were so tired they were dying to get on bed and just sleep for the day. Their beds were ready and just as Anjani was about to sleep, her phone chimes in. There was another email from Parnika. She opens up quickly checking on Jay who was now deep asleep.

She had mailed him her trip photos with her friends and others. She for once smiled looking at her photos as it was vanished when she read the note beneath it.

I know how worried were you for me. I am so sorry for that and hence to make up for it here are some photos that will keep you smiling until I written. There’s one more thing that I want to tell you before I leave for the next adventure. I really love you Jay. I know this isn’t the thing you tell someone via text or emails but I have no option. I have been waiting to tell you this for a long time but now I can’t wait anymore. That day when you had brought Shriya home, Ma and Pa wanted to speak to you about our marriage but I had stopped them. I wanted to find out if you really love me or not. I kept waiting and then Shriya came into your life. Right now, I don’t want someone else to come between us. Hence I really wanna tell this to you that I love you more than just a friend.

Love you loads,
Your Pari.

 Reading this it felt as all of her sleep vanished in a moment. What if Jay reads this tomorrow? She panicked. She couldn’t think of anything else right now. All she wanted was to keep Jay hers forever. She deletes the email from the inbox and turns her phone off. She looks at the sky trying to calm her mind down and sleep.


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Chapter Twenty-Four


CHAPTER TWENTY - FOUR

Next morning Jay gets up to find Anjani missing from the bed. She was already up before him. It was quite weird for him as usually she was the one who used to sleep late and Jay had to wake her up usually. He smiles and gets up stretching his arms. Just like his daily routine, he folds the beds up and keeps them back into the storage room. He heads downstairs to freshen up and write about his day to Parnika in an email.

“Jay, breakfast is ready. You wanna come down or should I bring it up here?” Anjani walks into his room. She notices Jay is writing a huge letter in email. “What are you writing?” She comes close and looks. “Oh, I am writing email to Pari, I am just doing it as I do always. I know she can’t be mad at me for a long time now. She’d write back to me soon.” Anjani read how Jay wrote everything that happened yesterday as if it had been a diary. I need to read more of this to find out if he is indeed serious about me or not. But I don’t wanna let him know else he might feel bad that I am doubting him. But what if he is actually just not with me as much as he thinks? Oh this is going to kill me if I don’t find the answer soon.

Later when Jay went to office, Anjani sneaked into his room. She had called in sick and wanted to rest at home when Jay asked why she wasn’t ready for the shop. Usually he used to drop her off at her antique shop before going to office. She opens his laptop and logs in. She opens his browser to find the password is already saved. She logs in and looks into the sent emails. She finds emails back dating to the days before they met. She opens them one by one and begins to read them all. She begins with the oldest ones first going in the ascending order reading every single one.

She reads the line where Jay describes her as attractive and beautiful and blushes. The next moment her smile turns into frown when he writes that she is very similar to Parnika in a ton of things. It reminds him of her presence even when she’s mad at him and not around him

 So It is true, I was right last night. He loves me because I am similar to Pari and not because of me. How can I be such a fool? I thought he likes me but I didn’t know that he was looking for her in me. But why is he with me if he really likes her? I remember khushi saying that I resemble her a lot. But I hadn’t imagined this. I can’t build my relationship being in a shadow of someone’s memories. Maybe he’s yet to find out his feelings for her? What should I do? Help them to get together or be selfish and just enjoy being with him.  Her eyes get wet as she reads more how Jay describes each of their spent moments beautifully. She smiles and cries at the same time as she loved how both Jay and Parnika cared for each other but were right now miles away from each other.

I can’t just let her take Jay away from him. We might appear to be similar but I am not her. I am not going to let go the one I love like her. Anyway, she’s far away from here for a long time. If I make it happen, jay would not think about her at all. All he’ll remember is about me. I won’t let him discover his feelings for her at all. Let it be under the disguise of friendship. I’ll make him just mine forever.
While closing the app she quickly copies the password and syncs the email with her phone. 

“Anu, where are you? We have to go….” Jay sits on the couch waiting for Anjani to get ready. As promised Jay was taking her on a dinner and a long drive tonight. The booking had been postponed to today. “Coming Jay” She appears from room wearing a nice saree. Jay's eyes go from her head to toe awestruck. “You're looking gorgeous” he gets up and looks at her. She smiles and holds his arm. “Let’s go then”. Jay was seemingly taking her to a place when they haven’t been before. It was quite outside the city limits as she saw him enter the highway. The drive was quiet filled with romantic music from the car stereo and the traffic was luckily free flowing tonight. It took them less than an hour to their destination. Jay had taken her to a new restaurant that had opened on the outskirts of the city recently.

Jay had booked a table in the open terrace where there was fake grass beneath and small table with candles. There was nothing but starlight above and candle light all around them. Most people around them were young couples dining together. The whole place had a romantic aroma to it. They order the food and sip on their drinks waiting for it. Jay gets up and excuses himself while she observes others around. Young couples enjoying their romantic dinner. She felt bad for him as this was way better than what she had planned yesterday. Maybe I shouldn’t have cancelled his plan. Next time I won’t I promise. She smiles as Jay looks upon her with a smile.

He sits beside her and pulls out a ring box from his upper shirt pocket. Oh my god! Don’t tell me it’s what I am thinking. He wanted to propose yesterday! I am such a dumbass. I shouldn’t have forced my plan on to him yesterday! I don’t know what to do? Should I say yes immediately? Or should I just take some time to tease him before saying yes? I can’t believe he’s actually doing this even after I ditched on his plan yesterday with a lie. Oh he’s such a sweetheart.

Jay opens the ring box and pulls out the ring. It was a nice diamond and platinum ring. It’s beauty was enhanced as the mild candle light was making it shine like a star.  He looks in Anjani’s eyes taking her hand, “Will you marry me Anu?” She wanted to say yes but her mouth wasn’t obeying her. It felt as if her inner conscious was stopping her for being selfish for once. “Jay, I really love you but do you mind if I take some time to answer?” That’s all she could come up with. She was in a constant mental debate whether she should be selfish and say yes for once or she should think about Parnika and help Jay to discover his feelings for her. “Uhm…Okay…Sure…. I know it’s a huge decision and a big deal for girls. I wanted to do this yesterday but then you know what happened. But no worries, you take your time. I thought its a good idea to take our relationship further.” Jay places the ring back in the box and begins to eat as their order arrives in the meantime.

Why was I unable to say Yes, I love him. I can say yes, its not  a big deal. People have one sided feelings all the time. But this wasn’t a one sided love. He loves her and just isn’t aware about it. He thinks she’s just a super close childhood friend. He just needs to think of her more than a friend. But why should I spoil my relationship when I have been already so far in it and everything’s going so good? I know he loves her then why did he ask me out? I don’t mind what others think about it. But what if he later finds out about his feelings later? Sooner or later, He’d meet Pari again and there’s a chance that he might leave me for her? Am I really that bad?  I know he likes me because I am just similar to her but should i really go ahead with that? Will I be able to replace her in with myself in his heart ever?


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Chapter Twenty-Three



CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE

 Jay and Anjani were now enjoying the starlight above their heads. It was soon going to rain as there were a lot of clouds in the sky. Jay rests his head on his arm and looks up in the sky. Anjani wraps her arm around him resting her head on his chest. Jay wraps his arm around her waist, “You know Anu, It’ll rain soon and I’d miss sleeping up here for all those months. Since childhood I have loved sleeping under the sky. Every time there was it was close to rain Pari and I used to debate whether it’ll be raining at night or not. You know once I won the argument and we were sleeping under the sky when it decided to pour water upon us at 3 in midnight. Haha Pari was so mad at me. All out mattresses and pillows were drenched and we had to sleep on carpet for 2 days because it was all cloudy and these stuffed cotton inside beds were least interested in losing their water.” Jay smiles as he kisses Anjani’s hair. “Can I ask you something? If you don’t mind?” Anjani looks at him. “Yes, what happened?” Jay rubs her back gently with his other arm. “Who’s this Pari? I have heard quite a few times about her while being here with you guys but never had a chance to know. They way you and others talk about her make me feel like she was someone really important to all of you.”

“She was?”Jay gets startled a bit. “Yes, they way you all speak of her. It feels like she was there in your life deep but now nowhere to be seen. I didn’t see you calling her to dinners or talking on phone or video chat like khushi” Anu rests her head back on his chest. “ She is just on a year long work trip. She left her phone back home. While she left, she was mad at me. Maybe that’s the reason I can’t talk to her.” Jay takes a lock of her hair between his fingers and plays with it. “Is she your cousin or something?” Anjani was getting a bit curious about mystery girl in Jay’s life who everyone else knows about except her.

“No she’s my childhood best friend and neighbour.” Jay chuckles at her question. “Oh I’m sorry, I know nothing about her so I just had some assumptions.” She pecks Jay’s lips and sleeps back again. “Haha, well If I knew mentioning her would get me a kiss then I would’ve done that long back.” Jay chuckles as she hits playfully at his chest. “She was more than just a friend to me…” “More than friend?” She interrupts before he could finish his sentence.

“Yes anu, She was my best friend. So close that it felt like she was a part of family. Ma and Pa used to treat her as their own daughter. Often Ma used to be at her side.”Jay smiles thinking about sweet old memories. “Then why did she leave? You said she was mad at you? What did you do that made her leave?” Her curiosity was now piked and she wanted her answers. “Well I didn’t make her leave. She’s on a work trip. She was chosen by WHO for their medical campaign in remote areas of the world. It might take a year or more.” “Oh...So how did you made her mad?” She had stories building up in her mind now. “We never used to keep secrets from each other but I did once fearing she’d freak out.” Anjani gets up and sits. “I was worried that she’d freak out if I told her I was dating someone. To be specific my boss’ daughter who was my colleague.” Jay gets up and rests his head in her lap.

“Why do you think she’d freak out? She is your best friend right? She’d understand you chose a partner that you liked and wanted to be around with?” She plays with his hair. “Well, She’s always been all protective and possessive about me. She was never like that when we were kids. She used to team up with other kids around me and often used to prank me. But her behaviour was changed drastically when she was back after finishing her degree. She was now grown into this possessive and protective girl. She was indeed a bit bully as a kid too but this avatar was quite new and weird for me. But soon it began to feel all normal I don’t know why. For a change it was good that I had to no longer worry about her pranks for the time being.”

Jay looks at Anjani who was deep in thoughts. “Hey? Are you listening?” Jay touches her cheek as she startles up a bit. ‘Yes, I was just thinking about you and her as kids. She has a deep connection with you indeed. But I was wondering why would she be mad at you for just keeping a secret from her?” I wonder if it’s what he is saying or something more to that? But why would he lie about her?  “Well, was often motherly figure as per Hitesh who still used to tease me because of her being so protective about me.” Jay air quotes the words as he tries to emphasize the fact that he was a bit annoyed but that behaviour of her at times.

“Hmm… but it is still weird that she’d react this way just for a secret. Like it is normal for you to get a date. You are so handsome, independently earning, sweet and better than most guys I’ve ever dated.” She kisses his forehead. Unless she was into him, she wanted to keep him for herself. “Jay?....” “Hmm…?” “You are sure she was just your best friend? Did she tell you about something else?” Jay gets up and looks at her. “No and I think we should sleep. It’s getting late. I have to go to office early tomorrow”. He leans close in for a peck and then sleeps.

Anjani smiles at him and lies down. But inside her heads there were thoughts about what Jay had said. She was wondering if what she is thinking is correct or not. She shakes her head and turns to look at Jay who was now fast asleep like a baby. She suddenly felt all possessive and worried about him. She gets up and kisses his forehead and cuddles him. Suddenly she feels his arm being wrapped around her waist and she looks up to see a smile on his face. All of sudden that insecurity vanished in thin air and she lays her head on his chest with a smile on her face. She hugs him tight and tries to sleep.

It was for a while or so but again she felt she heard Jay saying something. She carefully looks at him. Jay was muttering something in his sleep. She tries to listen to know what was he murmuring in his sleep. “No...don’t go pari…. Don’t leave me alone like this.” He was muttering her name. It wasn’t first time when Jay was talking in his sleep and mentioning Parnika. She sleeps back hugging him tightly as he snuggles close to her in sleep. She couldn’t sleep the whole night thinking about Jay and Parnika. She felt something was there which Jay wasn’t telling her. Her instincts said something else while she didn’t wanted to agree with them. She wanted to keep Jay to herself.

But what if She really likes him? Doesn’t matter I love him too and he loves me. But the way he talks about her in sleep, what if he loves her more than you? What if he doesn’t love you at all? No,no, no…. She shakes her head and tries to focus her thoughts so she can sleep. But the way he talks about her and the way he said she reacted to him seeing someone. But why would he date someone else if he really likes Pari? Maybe he’s not aware about his feelings yet? Maybe she was waiting for the same? If that’s the case, what would I do? Let him go to Parnika? Or be selfish and keep him just for me? No, I can’t be that selfish. After baba’s death, he’s the one who brought me out from depression and cared for me. I can’t be so mean to him. But I can’t let him be with someone else too. What should I do?

Thoughts like these plague her mind throughout the night. She just lies in comfort of Jay’s arms and tries to distract horrible thoughts that were entering her mind.

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